By: Scullystar

Rated: NC-17- if you're underage or can't bear the thought of Scully
and Dogget together- TURN BACK NOW!

Spoilers: Slight seasons 7-8-9


Disclaimer: I don't own a single one of these characters, but if I did
and some fabulous fan decided to write a harmless fan-fic about them,
I wouldn't be mad at all...not one bit...


Author's Note: I consider myself to be a strict Shipper, but the
question was presented the other day as to how I would have reacted if
Dogget and Scully had ever been placed in a romantic situation, and
spawned the idea for a story topic I would have otherwise never even
considered writing about. It's a bit...um...naughty, but I figured if
I was going to write a Scully/Dogget romance fic, I might as well go
all out! Hope it's entertaining :-)

Summery: Scully/Dogget Romance- Dogget decides to confront his
feelings for Scully by telling her exactly how he feels, even when he
knows Reyes has the same feelings for HIM. Lots of angst and UST then
RST.



    "Choosing to Confess"
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Monday
7:03 a.m.
Residence of Dana Scully

Scully was surprised to find Agent John Dogget outside her apartment
complex waiting for her. They were suppose to meet a little ways down
the street at this little coffee shop then head to work. Scully,
Dogget and Reyes were working on a case together involving a series of
murders too close for comfort in D.C. and Scully was a little curious
as to why Monica Reyes wasn't with Dogget as well.

They were supposed to be discussing the case, and some failed attempts
by persons unknown to thwart their investigation already had made them
decide to meet somewhere outside the office to go over some of their
more recent findings and witness statements.

"Agent Dogget, I expected to meet you at the café, not outside my
house." Dogget scratched the back of his neck and shrugged. "I was
gettin' antsy." Scully smirked at him and motioned for them to head
down to the café.

"Where's agent Reyes this morning?" Scully questioned.

Dogget continued to look straight ahead and answered with a quick,
"She's at the office." "Has something been turned up? Did she get a
new lead?"

"Uh, no...she wanted to finish somethin' up I guess. She knows what's
goin' on anyway. Actually... I was wonderin' if we could go somewhere
to talk...not the café though. Someplace not so...public."

Scully looked at Dogget for a moment considering him. There was
something nervous about him today. Like he needed to get something off
his chest and was itching to do so.

Scully stopped walking and tilted her head back in the direction of
her apartment building.

"We can talk back at my place. My mom already left with William."
Dogget looked relieved at the offer. "Thanks."
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	Dogget watched Scully walk ahead of him into the elevator and
took in a breath and let it out slowly.

What was he doing?

What did he think he was playing at here?

What he was about to do could make or break him, and he supposed he
had to do it sooner or later before it got the better of him.

Dogget had been torn as to whether or no to even mention anything to
Scully and Reyes, and he supposed it would be easier to talk to Scully
about it first considering he and Reyes had a...past.

He knew Monica from years ago. They had been intimate at one point but
his career and her new job had driven them apart. When Reyes had been
thrust back into his life, he felt confused about the feelings he was
having about her...especially since the feelings he already had for
Scully had been something he thought he was just getting control over.

The fact that he knew Monica still felt that way about him made it
even worse. He still cared about her. As a friend and someone he had
been very close with. But he had been falling in love with Dana Scully
since the first time he had laid eyes on her. He thought it had just
been the need to make sure she stayed safe and to help her find
Mulder. Then he justified the feelings by saying he just wanted to
protect her and her new baby from harm.  But long sleepless nights had
forced a silent confession out of him and he had come to terms with
this feeling inside himself. Something he hadn't felt in a long time,
and was threatening to overwhelm him. It had helped when Scully went
away on maternity leave and he and Reyes had been made partners on the
X-Files.

Or so he thought.

It had become very apparent that Monica still cared deeply for him

It was too apparent that he would never stop feeling this way toward
Scully unless he got it off his chest and she either accepted him or
shot him down.  He figured it would be easier to get shot down. He
wouldn't have to think about it anymore. He would know how she felt
and he could get on with his life without wondering if the two of them
could ever have something more...but what if she accepted him and what
he had to say? He would be happier than he had ever been...but that
couldn't happen...not when she was obviously still in love with
Mulder, still trying to hold onto him and his memory for her baby's
sake.

They reached her apartment and he remained silent as he followed her
into her dimly lit living room. Scully removed her coat and sat down
on the couch, turning the lamp on the end table on for extra light. He
wished she had left it off so she wouldn't be able to see his face
while he did what he was about to do.

John sat on the couch not too close to her but close enough that he
could smell her perfume. He studied the way the lamplight made her red
hair glow, and her blue eyes sparkle.

"John? You wanted to talk about something?"

Dogget snapped back and met her eyes.

"Sorry 'bout that...yeah...I do want to talk to you about somethin'."

Scully leaned in a bit waiting for him to go on.

"OK, I need to say all this and I'm just gonna to say it all at once,
so bear with me."

When Scully nodded her understanding he took a deep breath, praying
this would all come out the way he wanted it to.

" Dana...I've been a cop for a lot' a years. I was a cop before I
joined the FBI and I'll always be a cop at heart. I love workin' on
the X-Files with you and Monica...I'd worked with Monica before this
though...I think that has a lot to do with this too, but I'll get to
that in a minute. I've been married before, Dana. I had a little boy.
He was kidnapped and murdered. I think that had a lot to do with me
joinin' the FBI in the first place. I figured I couldn't do nearly as
much to find my son's murderers workin' for NYPD as I could here at
the FBI. Then I got assigned to be your partner...to help you find
Mulder. I had to gain your trust and you did trust me. I wanted to
help you find Mulder and I did everything I could. I wanted to protect
you too though. And after William was born, I needed to protect the
both of you. And Monica...She and I have a past together Dana. I don't
know if you're aware of that or not. Maybe you just picked up on it.
Maybe she told you herself. I don't know..."

"John...if you feel that you can't remain partners with Monica because
of a past the two of you might share..."

John shook his head. "No, you're not getting' the whole story yet."

Scully nodded and he went on.

"Monica and I were together for a while, but our jobs took us in two
different directions. Somehow we both ended up in the same place in
the end, on the X-Files. Dana-I know she still has feelin's for me. I
can tell. I don't know how to bring it up or what I would tell her
even if I wanted to bring it up..."

Scully nodded in what she thought was understanding. "You feel like
you can't continue on the X-Files because you are in love with agent
Reyes?"

John Dogget shook his head again, frustrated.

"No, Dana, I feel awful because I know she still cares about me and
I'm in love with YOU."

Scully was silent for quite a long time. Dogget looked at her hoping
to gage her reaction by the expression on her face, but she was as
enigmatic as ever, and refused to give him anything to go by.

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	Scully went over the conversation quickly in her head,
wondering how this had all happened and how it had never became
apparent to her before. Surely if John had feelings for her all this
time she would have known. Then again...thinking back to a few of
years ago, she and Mulder had been able to hide their feelings for
each other quite well.

For quite a long time, the two of them had gone on pretending there
was nothing between them. She knew how John felt. If what he was
telling her was true, she gave him credit for having the courage to
tell her all this.

She wasn't blind of course. There was no question in her mind that she
found Dogget attractive, and she wondered why he wasn't with someone
already. But she guessed she knew the reason now. Because of her. She
was very sure she had never given him any reason to think she wanted
anything more than a friendship and a professional partnership with
him.

Mulder was her baby's father, and she loved him. She had lost him
again, sent him away. She had told him to leave for all their sakes,
and the only contact they had was through e-mail. It had killed her to
make that decision but they both knew it was for the best.

Mulder has gone, taking the life they had wanted together with him.
The family had been torn apart, and it was Scully who had told him to
leave, it was never Mulder's decision. She cursed the choice she had
made everyday.  Every time she looked into William's eyes she
regretted the decisions she had made and the fact that William might
never know his father.

Scully couldn't allow herself to get involved with another man. No
matter how lonely she had become and no matter the attraction between
them. Scully couldn't accept Dogget's confession like he knew he
wanted her to.

"John...I don't know-what you expected me to say..." Scully tried to
gather her thoughts. It seemed thinking that you can't allow yourself
to be with someone and actually telling them were extremely opposite
tasks.

"I just wanted to tell you, Dana. I wanted to get this out in the open
before it drove me up a wall. I never expected you to accept my
feelin's for you. I need to talk to Monica about this too...I guess in
some way I had hoped you would be happy, but I know...you and
Mulder...I think I should go."

Scully reached out and put a hand on his arm. Dogget sat back down and
looked intently at her, not sure of what was coming next.

"Agent Dogget...you are a very good man. But I can't love you back.
The father of my baby is out there somewhere..."

"And I'm here, agent Scully. I'm here with you now, and where's
Mulder? Do you even have any idea? You sent him away, and he left. I
don't know what you said to him, but if it had been me, it wouldn't
have mattered what you told me, I wouldn't have left the woman I love
and our son alone and in possible danger!"

Scully was silent again, tears forming in her eyes.

Dogget was so angry at this moment. How could anyone up and leave
their family like Mulder had done? It seemed insane that Scully was
holding on to something she and Mulder had once had when he couldn't
even be there to share it with her and their child. Dogget shook his
head and stood up, distancing himself from Scully. He was fuming. He
understood her to some degree, but CHRIST!

She was crying.

"Dana, look...I didn't come here expectin' you to throw yourself into
my arms.  I came here to find out if there was anything to my lovin'
you so much. I can't help it, it's how I feel, and I'm sorry that I
don't understand how you can allow yourself to be lonely when you know
there's someone who wants to be with you." Dogget kneeled down in
front of her and placed his hands over hers.

"I've never been good at this stuff, ya know...I was surprised I had
the nerve to ask my wife out on our first date never mind to marry
me...but that was a long time ago, Dana. I haven't felt this way about
anyone in a long time. I just want to be there for you...I know I
sound like I'm tryin' to convince you to be with me, but that's not
it. I just want you to understand where I'm coming from."

Scully looked up at him and shook her head. "John...you make me want
to believe you."

"What?" Dogget cocked his head to the side waiting for her reply.

"When I told Mulder to go away...I convinced him that it was the right
thing.  I was hoping it would be the easy thing. I loved Mulder so
much, John. I had been in love with him for so long, and when we
finally were able to be together, it was the best thing that had ever
happened to me. I thought that nothing could stop us from being happy
from now on...but after William was born, after everything that had
happened-we both knew that he had to leave.  I didn't want to be on
the run for the rest of our lives. I knew that wasn't the kind of life
I wanted to have for my child or for myself. So I convinced Mulder
that him leaving was the only solution. It killed me. I had never
wanted anything more than to be with Mulder and be a family, have a
normal life. I knew that would never be possible though. Mulder knew
it too. That's why he allowed me to convince him to leave without me
and without William.  He wanted to protect us and he knew he had to go
away to do so."

"Dana...I had no idea."

"I wouldn't have expected you to know...I never told anyone. Not even
my mother. She really liked Mulder. She was so happy when I told her
about the baby...then when he had to go away...she was almost as upset
about it as I was I think."

"Dana...?"

"Which brings me back to us and our situation."

"Which is what?" Dogget asked quietly.

Scully squeezed Dogget's hand and looked him in the eye. He seemed to
be expecting the worst.

"MY situation right now is that I'm not ready to be with anyone again.
Not yet. I hope you understand why."

"Of course I do, Dana. Like I said before, I didn't come here
expectin' us to run off together...I needed to tell you what was goin'
on. And I only hoped that you wouldn't throw me out. That was my
highest expectation."

Scully smiled at him, holding his gaze for longer than she had meant
to. His eyes were studying her face and there was so much emotion
swirling around in them.

"God, you're beautiful," John blurted out. He felt his face go red and
looked at the floor.

Scully felt herself blush at his compliment. What was she going to do?
She never expected this to happen. She never thought about John in
that way.  However...something had happened since he had first
confessed his feelings to her. He was right. She was lonely. And she
didn't want to have to be alone anymore. She hadn't heard from Mulder
in almost three months. And she was attracted to John Dogget. He had
come in to the X-Files to take Mulder's place and she had hated him
for it at first. Then he proved himself to be a wonderful agent and
someone she knew she could trust. But she was still in love with
Mulder then.

She had vowed not to let herself get involved with anyone else after
she had sent Mulder away. She had believed that Mulder would return
one day and take her and William away from this madness to be happy
somewhere safe. But weeks turned into months and hope was fading fast.
She hadn't heard from him in so long...she feared the worst and had
started to come to terms with the fact that she might never see Fox
Mulder again.

And now this.

"Thank you..." Scully said softly. She didn't know what else to say,
but wanted to make sure John knew that she wasn't upset at him for
this.

"I don't want to upset you...but I don't want to leave either," John
said quietly, taking her hands in his and looking at her face,
searching for understanding and acceptance.

"You haven't upset me. I understand your concerns and the questions
you had about Mulder and why he left. I can see how it is hard to
understand his actions, but he did it for me, as much as he didn't
want to...he knew it's what I wanted. I haven't heard from him in
months. I think he might not be coming home again."

"Dana..."

"It's OK. I know I have to be OK with it. It's a risk we knew we'd
have to take when he left. We both knew he might not come home again.
I prayed for him a lot at first. He told me once that he didn't
understand how I could believe in that...in going to church and
following the Catholic religion but never believe that there could be
alien life or ghosts or monsters. I always thought I needed to believe
in something. Maybe I always wanted to believe him. I think I might
have if I wasn't a scientist...I need things to have an explanation.
Ironic, isn't it? When you look at how I've spent nearly a decade of
my life...hunting down aliens and mutants and trying to uncover
government conspiracies. I'm tired of it John. I just want a simple
life and to be safe. I want to know my life and the life of my child
won't be hanging in the balance because of Mulder's crusade. Sometimes
I think he was a selfish man. Dragging me into this, dragging our son
into it...but I could have left any time I wanted to. I chose not to
because I loved him too much.  And look what I have to show for it."

"You have a beautiful son, Dana. That can't be a mistake, can it? It's
what you wanted."

Dogget searched her face again, but found only remorse. He never knew
so much doubt and pain and anger could be encased in such a small
beautiful woman. He wanted to wash all that pain away.

"William is not a mistake. But sometimes I think letting myself love
Mulder was the biggest mistake I ever made."

Dogget reached out to her and took her into his arms. "Come here," he
whispered and felt her arm wrap around his back.

Scully closed her eyes and let herself be held. Dogget was strong and
gentle with her in his arms. She breathed him in and relaxed. He
wouldn't hurt her.  He wouldn't leave her when she needed him. She
never realized. She hardly saw him much unless she was helping him on
a case.

Scully moved back to look at him. "John..."

Dogget shook his head. He knew that she was worried that she had said
too much, revealed to him more that she had ever wanted.

"I won't tell anyone what you told me, and I would never use any of it
against you or whatever you might be thinking. It's OK that you told
me those things."

She looked at him, relieved. "Thank you, agent Dogget."

He reached up and brushed a stray strand of red hair away from her
cheek, and ran his fingers over her soft skin.

Scully closed her eyes, reveling in the contact for a moment.

"You really are beautiful, Dana, you know that?"

Scully wanted to look away but couldn't hide her soft smile from him.
Then it occurred to her that he had told her earlier that he didn't
want to leave. She met his gaze.

"What is it you want, John?"

"Right now? Right now, I want to kiss you," John said, determined, and
leaned toward her slowly.

Scully remained still, her eyes never leaving his until she felt his
lips brush softly over hers. Her eyes closed automatically, and she
couldn't help leaning into his kiss, shivering as she felt him trace
her lower lip with his tongue.

His mouth was demanding, wanting her to give back as much as she got.
She felt herself melting into him and pulled him over her on the couch
so he was lying on top of her, holding her face in his hands.

Scully ran her hands over John's chest, pulling at the tie around his
neck, trying to loosen it.

John growled deep in the back of his throat feeling her hands all over
him like that. It was too much to bear through so many clothes.

"I want-Ah...I want to make love to you, Dana. Let me," Dogget managed
out between gasps and trying to undo the buttons on her slacks.

Scully nodded her permission, and Dogget reluctantly pulled himself
away and stood up. He watched a very sexy Dana Scully lead him to her
bedroom by the hand, and found himself being pushed onto the bed.

Scully make quick work of his buttons and zippers and ties. He
supposed it was because she was a doctor; they should have fast and
able hands. He found himself stripped down to his boxer-briefs in no
time flat and did nothing to hide his raging hard-on. He stood up and
helped Scully remove her clothes.  Her suit joined the pile of his
clothes and she moved back against Dogget, wanting to be kissed.

John kissed his way down her throat and between her full breasts. One
hand went up to knead her mound of flesh and his lips caught and
teased her other nipple through her white satin bra.

Scully gasped at the cruel pleasure. She wanted her clothes off and
the teasing to end. She wanted him inside her.

She reached behind her back and undid her bra, letting it fall down
her arms and to the floor. John gently played with her nipples,
enjoying the weight and the feel of her perfect breasts in his hands.
He loved the noises she made when he leaned down and suckled her
nipple into his hot mouth.

Dogget was overwhelmed by the effect Dana was having on him. He loved
her and wanted her so badly. He wanted to make her come over and over
again. He wanted to hear his name come out like a growl in the back of
her throat as he pushed himself inside her hot inviting body.

He maneuvered them back to the bed and moved over her. He pulled her
panties off and Scully spread her legs to allow him to settle down
between them, and it was the sexiest thing he had ever seen. He felt
his cock twitch at the sight of her so beautiful and open right before
him.

John moved down Scully's body, biting and nipping her flesh. She
moaned above him as he slid two fingers into her slick opening and
wrapped his lips around her swollen clit.

Scully reached down to put her hands on his head, urging him on. He
was making her feel so good. It had been too long. She needed release.

"John..." Scully moaned. His mouth all over her, his fingers deep
inside her body-he was going to make her come and she wanted him to be
in her when that happened. She stopped him and he reluctantly obliged,
wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

"You taste so good, Dana. Why did you make me stop?"

"I want to come with you in me. Is that OK?"

Dogget smiled at her, wanting her now more than ever.

John moved down between her open thighs and ran the head of his cock
back and forth across her wet opening. Scully whimpered in protest to
his teasing, and wrapped a hand around his hard length, pulling just
the head into her body. He groaned, feeling how wet she was. Dana
wrapped her legs around him and pulled him into her, thrusting her
hips up to meet his.

John Dogget saw stars.

He had never imagined it would be so good. Dana was beautiful lying
there beneath him, her legs wrapped around him, groaning out from
pleasure he was giving her. He thrust into her hard, not being able to
control himself anymore, and he gasped out as she met him thrust for
blessed thrust.

"Ah...Dana...you keep that up and I won't be able to last much
longer!"

Scully didn't stop. She didn't answer him either. She was so
close...right on the edge. She moved with him, holding onto him,
enveloping him in a tangle of arms and legs.

She felt him speed up; she knew he was close. She dug her nails into
his back and cried out as her orgasm washed over her.

A moment later John Dogget was coming inside her, telling her he loved
her, holding onto her so tight.

He looked down at her and smiled. Scully smiled back and closed her
eyes and he slid himself out of her.

John rolled onto his back and breathed out. He moved over to Scully
and pulled her into a hug.

"How you doin'?" he asked softly.

"I'm good...we're awfully late for work."

Dogget chuckled. "Yeah, we are. Is that a problem for you this
morning, agent Scully?"

Scully closed her eyes and hugged him around his stomach. "Not this
morning, agent Dogget."

Scully moved out of John's embrace and lead him into her bathroom to
take a shower.

John came up behind her as she was turning the water on and she felt
his cock pressing between her thighs. She braced herself against the
tub and grunted as he slid himself into her from behind. She was still
so wet from before, and he felt so good. He thrust slowly this time,
grabbing her hips in his big hands, pulling her back onto him. Scully
called out his name as he reached around and found her still swollen
clit, rubbing it until she came. He thrust in and out of her slowly
until he came again, and they stood there for a minute, their ragged
breathing the only sound in the apartment.

"My God, Dana..." he sighed into her ear.

"We'll never leave the house at this rate," she chuckled.

"You don't hear me complaining."
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Tuesday
8:54 p.m.
Home of John Dogget

	John collapsed onto his bed and closed his eyes. He was
exhausted. Thinking back to the day before, the incredible morning he
and Scully had shared, he was wondering why she wasn't at his place
right now. He tucked a pillow under his head and relaxed. She was home
with her son tonight, where she needed to be. The past few days hadn't
allowed her much time to spend with William, so she had actually gone
home early that day.

He smiled at the thought of her and the baby. Maybe someday they could
go out together, all three of them. To the beach or even just a walk.
He wanted to spend time with them both.

The phone rang and John jumped off the bed to answer it.

"John Dogget."

"Hello, agent Dogget."

It was Scully.

"Dana? What's goin' on?"

"I wanted to know if you would like to come over for dinner tonight? I
put William to bed already. I thought it might be nice. Unless you've
already eaten." She sounded unsure.

"No, I haven't eaten already. Actually I'm starved. I'd love to come
over."

"Good...good. I'll see you in a bit then?"

"You know it."

"John?"

"Yeah, Dana?"

"Hurry over."

John Dogget hung up the phone and smiled.

"As fast as I can..."
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